Jessica is bored.

I was secretly tormented here.

I’ve moved past this moment but, there’s always a dull ringing of this story running through my mind. Mainly because I can’t escape the trigger and lastly because, I am alone. The only “distracting” I did during this is trying to learn guitar for a week and making weird clay art that sits at my window sill collecting dust. All out of pure desperation to end the aching, deadly feeling of heartbreak.

However, I am here and healed. Now, I’m only suffering from lack of excitement and fulfillment.

This blog is mainly for me to release some of these thoughts into the ether. To help cure me of boredom. However, I have this gnawing feeling inside that I need to tell the stories of my pitfalls so that I can potentially help others from falling into those same dark places.

Cheers to my fellow hurt ones! Maybe this will bring you some comfort before, during or after your suffering.

Sometimes, you will feel so deeply connected to someone or something that there’s no reasoning with your instincts. Every red flag you’ve seen explained in a Tik Tok video will be waving violently in front of your eyes. You will ignore them because, feelings. Because lust. Because infatuation. Because compliments. Because deep meaningful conversations. This is all exciting and beautiful but, sometimes it’s easy to overlook circumstance and logistics when you are being mesmerized by an illusionist.

My young ones, please be careful out there. Listen to your gut. If you feel uncomfortable, there is something wrong. When you are pleading with someone for simple things like, being respected, something is wrong. If their baggage seems overloaded, move on. It’s really not that easy to go…